the weak flesh

assortment of thoughts šŸ¦¢šŸ‘

My beloved is napping. I am going to have a wonderful night, when he awakes. I got some of my most wished URLs for Fromsoft stuff lately, and I finally feel like I can stop collecting and start archiving. What a perfect time to have graduated into a horrible, nightmarish economy, I suppose... I may be trapped in hell itself, once I leave this beautiful home, but I will have ample free time to share my thoughts and creations.

I have some things on my mind that I'd normally yap to him about. A lot goes over his head, but he always listens and tries to engage. He's so sweet. I'm going to catch him in a beartrap and wrap his snapped bones in ribbons

You, {nebulously}, can hear them in his stead.

  1. I hope the next grand Rentry drama is about how you're not allowed to use steam borders from certain games. I think it would be really funny if this started happening in blush, in particular, because the environment there is just right for some absolute NONSENSE to be the focal point of mass cancellations. Such is life in a large Rentry space that bans an entire section of the queer community, but will shrug around constant harassment and nightmare P2W scammer cliques. You can just make the server normal instead of larping fascists and I wouldn't really care about any of this, but the double standards are laughably ridiculous when you hit a certain point. You're not even allowed to discuss this maturely without getting shot on sight, which is why I bitch about it so much elsewhere. Maybe one day they'll understand this is why people don't like the server environment, instead of deflecting any criticism possible with "FREAKS ARE JUST FREAKS XDDDDDDDDDDDDDD" (... moving the bar of "Freak" to suit any need they want. God forbid you talk in a way they don't like, using words more than 4 letters long would be absolutely immoral and a total devastation to the community, am I right? Yes I am still mad about this, not personally, but for all those there who might be like me - and less able to laugh it off. Why the fuck is a creative space being as anti-autistic as humanly possible all the fucking time? Identities that don't conform = Bad. Speech that doesn't conform = Bad. Appearance that doesn't conform = Bad. Wow, I woooooonder why this could possibly happen. READ A FUCKING BOOK INSTEAD OF YELLING AT PEOPLE TO FILL YOUR BOOTLICKING QUOTAS OF THE DAY. STOP HURTING PEOPLE AROUND YOU JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE TOO EMBARRASSED TO BE YOURSELF.)

Well, if it wasn't obvious, I'm quite happy that the like-minded people I see around are just as frustrated with the dumbass standards as I am. I love what you guys do for the rest of the community, and I thank you for making me feel safe in continuing to float around. Keep being you, keep doing what you love.

  1. I don't know why people assume I got my steam borders from them. No i'm sorry I rip the image as a webp directly after scrolling through the entire list MYSELF for 30 minutes because everyone fucking saves them as GIFs and they look like dogshit (unless you wanted it to look pixely, in that case I think it's awesome... but the point stands, I NEED my transparency!!!!!!)

I really need to get on consistently crediting people for the actual graphics, no problem there, but you have to understand I'm making these by spending 6 hours trying to find the right fanart and assets in the depths of my own archives, random Tumblr blog tags, and abandoned Discord servers before I even make the page. Yes I take too long to create mid. Yes I am retarded. Yes I can use this word on myself and I did that in a League game one time and it automatically chat restricted me and I was so fucking mad about it.