stagnant š¾
i feel so directionless. life just keeps passing by and i keep getting older with nothing to show for my existence. everything i used to enjoy has become draining and miserable. it's all so stupid and nothing helps, i got nothing out of therapy, nothing out of meds but being docile enough to tolerate
it's so frustrating when you don't want to die but you have absolutely nothing worth living for and nothing is ever going to get better. what am i even doing here? i don't care that i'm a drain on existence but i hate that i don't even have anything to enjoy anymore, no prospects, just dead ends and boredom.
also: SSRIs are fucking useless and cause more harm than good but trying to go off them just sticks me in a pit of paranoia and anxiety WHAT is the purpose of these stupid things holy shit